34.5 weeks

It is New Years Eve and I just read a Facebook post reflecting on the year which got me thinking. I have to say 2015 probably wasn't my best year. We spent January and February and maybe some of March finishing the house and moving, which I did not call fun. I went to St. George and had a terrible race, had to find a new job because my old boss went to another school. I did put on a successful Bobca Triathlon to only have those fuckers and the institution of MSU take it away.   I also got pregnant in May, so a lot of the year was spent with a lot of thought of this little creature growing inside of me.

Upon this reflection I need to make a more positive spin. (give me a break, I have been home sick for almost a week) In February we finished our beautiful house. I love my house! I suspect we will be here for a long time. I then got pregnant . It only took a couple of months and then bam, my life changed FOREVER. I have now been spending the last 8 months incubating a life inside of me and really that has been an experience that has been worth it. I was also able to gravel with amazing friends to triathlons, even if ,y races didn't go well or I didn't race at all. I got to spend some time at the beach with my Mom and another time on a nice trip with my husband. My new job is much better than the old one and although it keeps making uncomfortable, at the end of the day I feel rewarded.

I am excited for 2016 and what the year brings. Ivan will decide to join us in our beautiful new home here in the next few weeks. I am nervous and excited to meet him. We will never go back to our old way of life but I am pretty certain that the new way will be more fulfiling. I am excited to be able to go running outside. I want to do intervals on the bike and some good solid track workouts. Feel the gasping breath and blood in my mouth again. Oh, and to drink a full adult beverage will be nice. Maybe take a trip and get Ivan used to plane travel at a young age.

Here is to 2016. The best year yet.

32 weeks

I just read something on Facebook about not being afraid to follow your dreams because of the time it might take to accomplish them. Immediately I realized one of my dreams is to qualify and go to the Ironman World Championship in Kona. It sounds terrifying but I think I really want to do it.

I was trying to do some yoga on Wed. and the teacher of the you tube video had some really good thoughts that relate to how I am generally feeling. Some days I feel really pregnant, tired, have a lot of heartburn. Other days, I feel really energetic, get good sleep, and like my belly isn't quite that big. Yoga is the same. Some days feel good others don't. Just recognizing this now and accepting it is important. Realizing it is part of the process rather than being negative about it is important. I also have to realize that once Ivan gets here, life is going to be the same way. Unpredictable (for a while anyway) and some days, moments etc harder than others.