Tired of responsibility

Another one of my favorite things is clean sheets.

Tuesday
Super sore today. My hands and back hurt in lots of weird places. I thought that it was Mondays adventure ski but after some reflection I think it was from shoveling. There was some ice on our front walkway and I really went after it Sunday. Anyway, gift was hard. Core was also a lot of arms so we basically did two sets of arms. Swimming was good. My goggles wouldn't seal so I spent a bunch of time dealing with that. Feel good about fly. I can make a 50 now pretty well. It hurts but it is doable.

Wed

Did the ride and the run. Lisa came over and did the ride with me. On the run, I think I went out too hard. Could only go for 9 minutes.

Thursday

Big worthless work day. 

Friday
There are aspects of my job that I hate. I hate killing mice. Everyday I have a big mouse experiment it just breaks my heart. Today I ran flow on the cells from the mice I killed yesterday. The machine stopped working after one group. I thought something looked weird but figured I would collect the events I needed and look at it later with some different software. We were using a new tetramer and I wasn't sure what it would look like. In summary, I killed a lot of mice and spent a lot of money for no reason. Here is me crying. I should  have noticed the problem and not run all the tubes. Here is me feeling sorry for myself and thinking I am a bad scientist. Such a dumnass sometimes. Okay, now for a run. Sometimes a run is a good chance to get out those tears. You know the 4 non blondes song What's Up    "25 years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope. " I think I still feel that way at 35.

Saturday

Got out for a nice ride. It was warm and felt good to be in the sun. Got pretty muddy.

Sunday Race. I raced. There was nobody in the competition that was faster. I won. The paycheck was awesome. I was the fastest that showed up. Slower than last year but beat 2nd place by 30 minutes. Have mixed feelings about it. The run hurt the worst. I got a big gap on everybody else. On the bike I just tried to keep it upright. Found  that I could ride on the edge out of the tracks and ride up almost everything. You could see where the guys ahead of me had to run. Passed a couple of guys. The ski wax fine. Didn't feel super strong on the ski. Knew at that point I just had to finish to win.

I guess Worlds is in Italy. I know I said before that I wouldn't go, but if USAT gives me money I am going to consider it. I guess it is in 4-5 weeks. So still early. How cool, to get a trip to Italy. I kind of looked into the rules though, and it doesn't look super promising that I will get money. I will keep you updated.