Life

After a totally debilitating day at work. I am still in tears. I found an article that somebody posted on Facebook. It is called "30 questions to ask yourself before you die"  Lots of great questions that makes you realize little work issues are so petty, that people are petty, and that is sucks because there are so many more important things out there, so many more fulfilling things.

Here is the article
http://www.businessinsider.com/30-questions-to-ask-yourself-before-you-die-2013-7?utm_source=buffer&utm_campaign=Buffer&utm_content=buffer88bd6&utm_medium=facebook

Have been thinking about Polson. What should the plan be for the weekend. I have two options. Go up there Friday, race, come home. Or go up there Friday, race, and stay in Kalispell through Sunday. What is training going to be like after race? Would it be good to stay and swim and ride and/or run in the Flathead? Checked out the registered list yesterday. I am so irked that Linsey Corbin is racing. Is that bad of me? The only races in Montana she shows up to have prize money and she doesn't even have to race to get the top spot. I was looking forward to trying to duke it out with some of those girls, but (I'll stop writing what I want to say). You know how you have to be pro to win prize  money in USA triathlon. I think pros should be exempt in these little races.

So, I have been thinking and sort of stressing about how I think about this. My goal going into IM Wisconsin is to qualify for Kona. Sometimes, I question why. These races make me so full of anxiety going into them, Kona doesn't even sound fun and I haven't even qualified. However, it seems like the ultimate goal. I won't ever be a pro, but I can MAYBE do this. I am ambitious, I want to passionate, I am competitive, and I am also a bit of a dreamer. I guess those are a few of the reasons I want to go. So here is my problem. Did you see that maybe? I really wanted to be faster at Calgary. Those top two girls were smokin, but I still came in right below the 10% mark. That seems to be a pattern and it worries me. I did have a few problems such as shifting and losing two places on the run because I had to use the outhouse.  I don't know how much of that is an excuse, or if it wouldn't have changed anything. So tell me what you think. Yeah, nay? How is Wisconsin going to go. I need a little pep talk, either way. The emotions are running low.

More thoughts on Calgary- my bike was missing a gear. Found it in the bucket Friday. I wasn't going crazy when I kept dropping the chain on the warm up ride before the race Sunday. After analyzing the numbers and converting km into miles I ran Calgary faster than I have ever ran a half!

Next weekend- looks like it isn't going to happen. I should have known. My sister never ceases to disregard our plans. I should have learned by now to not make plans with her. Anyhoo. I might be better to stay around here. I get in a better weekend, not take a whole day off work, and not include 12 hours of driving. 

Maybe I can find some sweet ride to go on and I can still take some time if I should need a long weekend.

Swim- can I get a confidence boost swim. 4k in the pool or a good hard pond swim. Felt like I could do another lap at Calgary, but would like the confidence.

Schedule- Got called to jury duty next Tuesday(13th). I have to report for the whole day. Hopefully it will get called off, but I can't plan on anything for that day. I was going to do an experiment that day, but will now have to push it to Wed. So Wed. the 14th will be a very busy work day. Nothing during the day, and could be a late day, past 6:30. 

The week

Mellow week. Did ride on Wednesday. Easy on the my bike, but I was very emotionally charged and had a lot to think about. Ended up riding into the dark. Even Erik was a little worried. Friday, missed ride. Still had race wheels on bike and shoes with no cleats. Poor planning and my mechanic was not being at my beckoning call.
Saturday was a great ride. Good company and a good not so hard pace. Went over Battle Ridge, stopped in Livingston for coke and French fries, and then over Bozeman pass. 85 miles. Amazing how I didn't feel all that worked.
Sunday- the ride was maybe a little less productive than normal. Decided on an adventure which kind of failed and ended up being a lot of walk a bike. The run was great though. Maybe not flat, but a perfect 1:45 loop on trail.